Friday, March 27, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
Posted by Stefanie at 12:12 PM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Don't you just love lazy Sunday's? I have been in my jammies all day! :) The kids have been running around playing... I finally got in my cleaning mood at about 8... I have been waiting around all day for it! Hee hee... But I finally got started on the mounds of laundry piled up on the front room couch waiting to be put away! I cleaned the kitchen and did the dishes and packed the kids lunches!
And now off to snuggle in my bed with all my blankets and watch all my shows! aw... How nice! :) Hope everyone had a great weekend!
Posted by Stefanie at 8:31 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
The Wii is the kids newest love! They are so funny playing it! Xavy picked up on it real fast and is so good at most the games. Aiden just started getting good! His favorite.....guess?? BOXING! You should see his intensity punching away! So cute! Now they are begging for guitar hero for the Wii.... Apparently Uncle B has it and so we must get it! Hee hee! These crazy boys...
Posted by Stefanie at 5:40 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009
I'm having a pity party tonight...
All I have ever wanted was to be a wife and mother and maybe it's just not in the cards for me! I have SO many issues and insecurities when it comes to relationships.... I tend to love too much and see the good in people that don't really deserve my love! Why? I have been in counceling trying to figure this out! I never wanted to be a single mom and do this alone! It's so hard! I wanted to be a mother so bad but I didn't want to do it alone! How am I supposed to teach TWO boys how to be GREAT men and husbands? I want my boys to see me happy, not sad and lonely all the time! I feel I have been a mess for almost 3 years now! When will I be fixed? I'm trying so hard to see the "bigger picture" I'm just SO impatient... anyways....I think that is enough venting for one night!
It amazes me the love capacity that Xavy has! He has been through SO much! More then any 6 year old should have... But man can that kid LOVE! He is such a great son and brother. He shows such love and compassion to Aiden...I almost feel like in some ways Xavy has taken on the "dad" role for Aiden. When Xavy himself is CRAVING the love and time from his dad. I know Xavy is going to be a great dad! If I fail at everything else in this life...THAT is the one thing I will get right! No matter what it takes! My boys WILL be GREAT husbands and fathers... So maybe I am doing something right... I just hope my love is good enough for them. I hope they know one day how hard I tried to make it work and how much I DO love them! I may not be the BEST mom in the world but I'm trying everyday to get it right and be the kind of person they need to guide them through life...
I am grateful that I do have the chance to be a mom even if it is alone...I DO know how lucky I am....
As my smarter, younger sister always tells me... "kids are blessings from god"
I think she is right and I know she is going to show me up and be the most amazing mom there is! She teaches me everyday to be more patient and understanding with my kids and I want her to know....I do listen!
Love to all my family... for without them I would have not made it this far!
Posted by Stefanie at 10:48 PM
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Posted by Stefanie at 10:18 AM
Posted by Stefanie at 9:50 AM