Friday, March 27, 2009

Spring or Winter?


My alley way driveway...

This is what we woke up to yesterday!! Isn't it supposed to be spring!?? It's freezing! and we had to bust out the snow gear for school again! I want to go swimming!!! lol...

Monday, March 23, 2009

So cute...


The boys team Jersey's! SO CUTE!!

Moto boys!!....


Xavy riding his motorcycle

Who do they think they are?? :)
These boys LOVE everything about motorcycles, going to motorcycle stores with Uncle B and trying on everything in the store to playing with toy motorcycles, watching races...LIVE or on T.V. Xavy can actually give me a play by play of who is racing and what their number is and what place they are in! It's so cute! He just learned to ride his motorcycle last summer without the training wheels on! I love watching him turn. He puts his little foot out like a pro! He CANNOT wait for summer to get here so he can go riding with his Uncle B and Aiden is following close behind with wanting to ride! Oh the joys of boys! They are so funny! Uncle B just got them new jerseys with their name and number on the back. They think they are SO cool! More pics to come soon!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Lazy Sunday's....

Lazy Sundays...

Don't you just love lazy Sunday's? I have been in my jammies all day! :) The kids have been running around playing... I finally got in my cleaning mood at about 8... I have been waiting around all day for it! Hee hee... But I finally got started on the mounds of laundry piled up on the front room couch waiting to be put away! I cleaned the kitchen and did the dishes and packed the kids lunches!

And now off to snuggle in my bed with all my blankets and watch all my shows! aw... How nice! :) Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Loves!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

The Wii....



The Wii is the kids newest love! They are so funny playing it! Xavy picked up on it real fast and is so good at most the games. Aiden just started getting good! His favorite.....guess?? BOXING! You should see his intensity punching away! So cute! Now they are begging for guitar hero for the Wii.... Apparently Uncle B has it and so we must get it! Hee hee! These crazy boys...

Friday, March 6, 2009

Pity Party...

I'm having a pity party tonight...
All I have ever wanted was to be a wife and mother and maybe it's just not in the cards for me! I have SO many issues and insecurities when it comes to relationships.... I tend to love too much and see the good in people that don't really deserve my love! Why? I have been in counceling trying to figure this out! I never wanted to be a single mom and do this alone! It's so hard! I wanted to be a mother so bad but I didn't want to do it alone! How am I supposed to teach TWO boys how to be GREAT men and husbands? I want my boys to see me happy, not sad and lonely all the time! I feel I have been a mess for almost 3 years now! When will I be fixed? I'm trying so hard to see the "bigger picture" I'm just SO impatient... anyways....I think that is enough venting for one night!

It amazes me the love capacity that Xavy has! He has been through SO much! More then any 6 year old should have... But man can that kid LOVE! He is such a great son and brother. He shows such love and compassion to Aiden...I almost feel like in some ways Xavy has taken on the "dad" role for Aiden. When Xavy himself is CRAVING the love and time from his dad. I know Xavy is going to be a great dad! If I fail at everything else in this life...THAT is the one thing I will get right! No matter what it takes! My boys WILL be GREAT husbands and fathers... So maybe I am doing something right... I just hope my love is good enough for them. I hope they know one day how hard I tried to make it work and how much I DO love them! I may not be the BEST mom in the world but I'm trying everyday to get it right and be the kind of person they need to guide them through life...

I am grateful that I do have the chance to be a mom even if it is alone...I DO know how lucky I am....

As my smarter, younger sister always tells me... "kids are blessings from god"
I think she is right and I know she is going to show me up and be the most amazing mom there is! She teaches me everyday to be more patient and understanding with my kids and I want her to know....I do listen!

Love to all my family... for without them I would have not made it this far!


Thursday, March 5, 2009

Xavy's new faux hawk....


My handsome Xavy!

Crazy A-dog!

Oohh.....So cute with his fresh new haircut!

Happy Boys!

Aiden's Birthday pics...


Birthday Ice Cream! YUM!

Look at my Cash money!

I just love his face! He is so crazy!

He got his very own riding "Glubs" Yay!

Waiting for our table at Famous Dave's!

My kids are so "Gangsta" Hee hee...

Aiden at Jumping Jacks!
Here are a few pics from Aiden's Birthday.... We had such a good day! We went to Jumping Jacks with Ashie-B and then to dinner at Famous Dave's with our family and Aiden opened his presents and ate ice cream and then Passed out in the car on the way home! Too much fun!! :)