Learn to LOVE myself...

I'm sitting here in bed watching Grey's Anatomy and thinking...

I am SO much like Meredith Grey..."I'm dark and twisty" I always kind of have been... SO much more lately then ever though and I can't quite figure it out! Til today...

I run from anything and anybody that is nice and good to me and run right for the fixer-upper if you will... Someone who will tear me down and not see me for who I really am and all that I'm worth and my potential.... And the reason behind all this...Is.... I DON'T LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH...I don't love myself! There I said it out loud... Why don't I love myself or feel I deserve any better then what I have had? These are all things I need to figure out and now that I have come to this realization I'm hoping to learn to love myself.... Who can love me if I don't love myself?

I just need to get out of this funk and see my own worth... I'll let ya know how this goes....Now off to my imaginary world of Grey's Anatomy...

Learn to LOVE myself...

Family Pics...

Our cute family..

Xavy and mommy..

Me and the lil man..

Cute brothers..

Xavier 6 years old..

Aiden 4 years old...

My good friend Amanda took our family pics. She is so good and it was so good to see her! It's been years! She has a website you can go check her out... amandaalexanderphotography.com
These are just a couple of my favs!

Happy Mother's Day...

The cute frames with handprints the boys made me

This year the boys made me a cute frame with their little handprint inside! It was so sweet because they put moons and stars on their frames because they know I love them! Xavy's message at the bottom says The other day she let me miss school and go to the zoo, she was nice.
Aiden's message says I like to go to the park and play and my mom pushes me on the swing.
They both told me I could have as many hugs and kisses as I wanted today!
I sure love my boys! Happy Mother's Day to me! =) And a big Happy Mother's Day to everyone!

To my mama...

My mama and me...

This post goes out to my mama...
My mom was always the "cool mom" We always got to do things even though she was and STILL is Extremely over-protective! She used to follow us whenever we rode our bikes anywhere and we rarely ever rode the bus! I find myself being a bit of a "freak" thinking of Xavy starting the big school and riding his bike to school even though we live right down the street from the school. Hee hee...
I used to make fun of my mom for getting so excited when all us kids were home at night so she could lock the doors and smile so big because we were all safe and home together. But I find myself doing the same thing at night ALREADY and my kids are still little! Oh geez! They better watch out!
Whenever my mom calls us girls even though we can see on our caller id that it is clearly her....whenever we answer she always says" Hi, bufficita....It's yous mama" In a baby voice too! She is so funny! oh and do you miss yous mama? Oh and how are the babies? They better be wearing coats! She is very loving and such a hard working person and I'm so proud of everything she has accomplished and continues to accomplish everyday!
Words can't express the LOVE I have for my mom and I hope she knows everyday that I love her and I try everyday to become a better person.
I know my mom misses her mom everyday and I want her to know that Grandma's memory lives strong within me! I think of her often and what she might say to me being a mom... She had the ability to make you feel like you were THE only person in the room...She gave you her full attention and you always knew without a doubt you were loved! She was such a sweet, and talented lady and she is missed so much! I think we all got our ability to love so much from her...My moms mom...I see so much of my grandma in my mom and I know she would be so proud of my mama and her accomplishments and I know she would LOVE seeing her be a grandma! :) Her memory lives within us all...There is pieces of her in all of us and it's comforting to see and know that....
My mom always used to say...your sisters will become your best friends and stick together and be good people and it has really stuck with me and I am trying to instill those things in my babies! I love you mom... Thanks for always being there...I know I can always count on you!

Happy Mother's Day!

Love always,
Stefanie

The Joys of Boys!

Brave little Aiden..

Aiden got his elbow pulled out of place and we had to go to the doctor and get it popped back in place! He was in SO much pain and HATED taking off his shirt. He kept saying "Please put my shirt back on" But once the Doctor popped his in arm back in place he was back to being Aiden! I have a feeling this will be the first of many trips to the Insta-Care having 2 crazy boys!
The JOys of Boys! =)

No more training wheels....

The little man had his training wheels removed on Sunday! He was SO excited and got it on his first try! Uncle B took of his training wheels and AWAY he went! On Monday after school he was so excited to show off his new skills to all the neighborhood kids! He feels like such a big boy! My babies are growing up way too fast!! *sigh* =)